July 19, 2007

  • WHEN MY SORROW WAS BORN


    When my sorrow was born I nursed it with care, and watched over it with loving tenderness.
    And my Sorrow grew like all living things, strong and beautiful and full of wondrous delights.
    And we loved one another, my Sorrow and I, and we loved the world about us; for Sorrow had a kindly heart and mine was kindly with Sorrow.
    Amd when we conversed, my Sorrow and I, our days were winged and our nights were girdled with dreams; for Sorrow had an eloquent tongue, and mine was eloquent with Sorrow.
    And when we sang together, my Sorrow and I, our neghbors sat at their windows and listenend; for our songs were deep as the sea and our melodies were full of strange memories.
    And when we walked together, my Sorrow and I, people gazed at us with gentle eyes and whispered in words of exceeding sweetness. And there were those who looked with envy upon us, for Sorrow was a noble thing and I was proud with Sorrow.
    But my Sorrow died, like all living things, and alone I am left to muse and ponder.
    And now when I speak my words fall heavily upon my ears.
    And when I sing my songs my neighbours come not to listen.
    And when I walk the streets no one looks at me.
    Only in my sleep I hear voices saying in pity, "See, there lies the man whose Sorrow is dead."


     


    K.Gibran



     


    PS==for you Claudia...with all my love...try to sleep now...


    sleep tight poetess!!I'll be next to you humming the promised lullaby...


     


    .....if a stone can't give you flowers...do you blame the stone...or your high expectations related


    to the stone?


     


     


     


     

July 18, 2007

  • flowers are heartless

     


     



    saluto to the sun


    flowers are heartless...
    they follow the divine plan without a question
    shouldn't they be sad when I'm sad
    and die
    when I'm dying??
    no...
    my garden is a colorful symphony
    in times of joy
    or in times of sorrow



    insensitive are flowers...
    to my changeable human moods...

    and solitude...


     


     



     

     

     

     

    celula a celula van formando este cuerpo decadente
    vasija impura que se rompe al menor roce con las paredes


    del mundo



    dominado por una mente aleatoria incongruente
    al servicio de los sentidos que con su juego la van


    desintegrando

    oh tu...
    de que te enorgulleces?????
    de un cuerpo que no es mas que un gran contenedor


    de orina y mierda????

    tu ego lo hace bailar y te dice que eres lo mas grandioso
    te miras al espejo y ves una imagen que no es la tuya
    aun asi jurarias que tu cuerpo es hermoso
    lo decoras con ropa fabricada por ELLOS
    te embadurnas la cara con cremas


    intentando retroceder en el tiempo
    calvin klein es obligatorio


    en el intento de ENMASCARAR la MUGRE de un cuerpo


     que no es mas que un gran contenedor de mierda y orina

    oh tu...
    que te hace creer que eres unico????
    no eres mas que una mala reproduccion de cada uno
    un cuerpo ...unA MASA...UN NUMERO


     
    celulas que dia A dia se van descomponiendo
    transformando y muriendo
    dominado por una mente aleatoria incongruente
    activada por palabras e imagenes BIFOCALES


    de unos ojos ciegos



    haciendote sentir que eres UNICO y ver lo que no es
    Todo es una ilusion mental en un cuerpo aparente

    NO SOY MAS QUE UN GRAN CONTENEDOR


    DE ORINA Y MIERDA...



    FUNCIONANDO BAJO EL PODER DE LA MENTE...


    de ELLOS

    ESO SOY...


     


    <Naty...Alma...Cerri...Lina...Dilcia...Alexa...Arturo...Carlos..Mauricio.......


    y muchos mas...


    todos esos que me hicieron vivir momentos que llevare conmigo siempre.


    al leer esto hoy...


    recordando el foro y el circo de la mente...y leer el post de Naty...


    tengo que estar agradecida por tanto carino incondicional que todos me


    habeis dado.


    el mundo virtual...el mundo de las letras...el saberse querida


    y presente atraves de ellas...


    quedarse confortablemente sentada en el corazon de cada uno.


    vosotras en el mio tambien.


    ...os tengo aqui bien dentro en un hermoso jardin...


     


    os veo caminando a diario en mi corazon.os quiero .sois mi familia.


    sois parte mia.


    GRACIAS...y no olvideis nunca:VIVID EL MOMENTO...


    SIEMPRE CONSCIENTES QUE ES EL ULTIMO...


    y nunca os equivocareis en las decisiones a tomar.>


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    <Os amo.que el sol dance siempre delante vuestra...


    iluminando vuestro camino.>


     


     

July 15, 2007

  • mille anni passi sunt

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    sleep and waking state


    in the hague...


    where the windmills remain


    standing still


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    lonely


    the two lips


    falsely symbolizing


    the netherlands


    remain


    bulbing every year


     


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    lonely


    the north sea


    remains


    a dark sea without shores


     


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    lonely



    aloneI


    [hours was this man talking to himself [or the trees?]


    very common nowadays in the hague]


    I run to my safe place


     


     


     


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    "Oh, my darling, the fire of love is burning me...What I have been you are now. One thousand years have passed. What I am will be you. One thousand years have passed." -corvus corax


     


     


     


     


July 8, 2007

July 6, 2007

  • S4030215


    since yesterday evening my daughter Esmeralda is expecting the new comer...


    Christian Miguel


    now...I personally think is a bit too early...it should be born within a month...


    but...you never know!!!


    we are all a bit nervous...here...and when one is delievering a baby...we all suffer the contractions...and have that baby together!!!!!


    so...


    WE ARE ALL EXPECTING THE NEW LIFE...


    LOVE TO ALL


     


    Update: after a night full of excitement...she was sent home...the contractions stopped...soooooo...a lot of rest...and the baby will come when he has to come.

July 5, 2007

  • one day
    I asked my master for the experience
    the ultimate one
    he placed me in a 5 star hotel
    I got in that luxury bed crying in silence
    closed my eyes
    the inner music started playing...
    my body was left in that luxury bed
    the same way I had left my clothes
    spread everywhere.

July 2, 2007

June 29, 2007

  • perception and reality

    there's so much noise around me


    far-from-me


     


     



    mouths talking



    ears hearing




    nobody listens



    a tear rolling down my cheeks
    streams
    to
    the noness
    of
    existence





    mouths talking



    ears hearing




    nobody listens



    a tear rolling down my cheeks
    streams
    to
    the noness
    of
    existence





    mouths talking



    ears hearing




    nobody listens



    a tear rolling down my cheeks
    streams
    to
    the noness
    of
    existence





     


    [for her there's no choice.her mind has gone into an aleatory circle of reality and fantasy.between... empty...dark... gaps of forgetfulness.tears roll down her cheeks realizing the end is near... she'll be parked somewhere...somewhere safe...where her aleatory mind and fantasy will be exercised without polluting the family tranquility and peace of mind.]


     


     


     


     













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    «’Reality’ is what we take to be true. What we take to be true is what we believe. What we believe is based upon our perceptions. What we perceive depends upon what we look for. What we look for depends upon what we think. What we think depends upon what we perceive. What we perceive determines what we believe. What we believe determines what we take to be true. What we take to be true is our reality.» (Zukav)


     


     


     

June 26, 2007

  •  


    enjoy the moment.now.only the wind outside breaks the silence of the moment. the cigarette left in the ashtray sighs ... spirals of smoke against the yellow of the curtain.silence.now.the moment.the thought.the nothing to be done.only the wind knows the turbulence of the moment.even so...I try to enjoy the now.life.the silence.the sound of the wind sweeping the moment of silence.the cigarette died... forgotten in the moment.silence.now.


     


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June 25, 2007

  • solitary ground-Epica


     


    Living at different places
    Evading into various spaces
    My compass has broken
    I'm losing the way
    An ongoing madness has led me astray

    My past breathes down my neck
    And it seems now that all I can do is
    Go back to beginnings when all lay ahead
    A fading illusion now plagues me instead

    In me there's still a place that fulfils me
    A sanctity here that I call home, I run to
    When winter descends
    If I try, can I find solid ground

    I follow elusive paths
    Oh, it seems they've been written in stone
    And the door to a new life is closing so fast
    Burning the bridges will not bring me back

    I know that in me there's still a place that fulfils me
    A sanctity here that I call home, I run to
    When winter descends
    If I try, can I find solid ground
    Or am I just wasting time?


    1_1 tree-of-life


    ...for me...my friend
    the road became too narrow
    the mountain too high
    the river too deep...

    so...
    I will take a shortcut to avoid the road...
    hold
    a pebble to remember the mountain
    watch
    a dewdrop every morning to remember the river

    and when


    NOTHING is ALL there is
    to be remembered


    I will be free...


     


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