I am part of the load
Not rightly balanced
I drop off in the grass,
like the old Cave-sleepers, to browse
wherever I fall.

For hundreds of thousands of years I have been dust-grains
floating and flying in the will of the air,
often forgetting ever being
in that state, but in sleep
I migrate back. I spring loose
from the four-branched, time -and-space cross,
this waiting room.

I walk into a huge pasture
I nurse the milk of millennia

Everyone does this in different ways.
Knowing that conscious decisions
and personal memory
are much too small a place to live,
every human being streams at night
into the loving nowhere, or during the day,
in some absorbing work.

 

<RUMI>

her voice sounds like a hammer hitting my head.

time.time.

do you know

when i was a little girl nobody had a watch...or a clock.a

man came every morning shouting from the street

"the clock says it's 6 ".and we all got up.

we had no electricity.oil lamps.then gas lamps.she

looks through the window and nods her head.too

much electricty everywhere...people get sick.we

were healthier...you are all sick.it comes from all

the cables around you.and the television.and the computers.

you all don't think about us.we are less than nothing.

i can't even make a call.strange language you all use.then dial 1.

then dial 2.then dial 3...when they finish I forgot why

i was calling.there are no family doctors anymore.now

they don't even look at us...they look at the computer.

you go to them expecting a nice cup of coffee..

friendly conversation...and they stick their noses

in the damn pc...and send you home.last week

i asked my doctor about my blood tests...

he said everything was perfect ...looking at the computer.

i laughed so much.i hadn't done the blood tests yet.

[I couldn't stop her neverending blabla about the good old times...I don't miss them.

but she has a million reasons to talk like this.

yesterday I got a letter from my company.we might

have to stop working.the newspapers talk about

8.000 out of a job.ambulant care to the old and sick.

the townhall has decided to work with cheaper independent

workers..with no specialization.this has been going on for the last three years.

global changes ...global disaster for the poor

and the needed.I feel a certain repulse for the new changes.I certainly

wished to have the power to make the ones

that are in charge[sadly chosen by all of us]very old

and very sick...and having nobody to help them.

I know this is not very spiritual...don't care....what is spiritual anyway?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

this little human thing is my granddaughter

Yenaisis.first october was her second birthday.

my daughter worries a lot about her...mostly

due to her communication skills.she talks very

little...let's see...her vocabulary till 10

minutes ago...

ma [referring to me]

mama

papa

eat

drink

kuki[music]

kuk[book]

bye

hello

yes

no[this one is her fav.]

she knows how to scream in all possible tones...

she dances and moves like an adult

climbs everywhere like a cat...

and has the most amazing laugh

contagious and devilish...

I try to tell my daughter she shouldn't worry...

she's growing up fine...mini...but fine...

but she doesn't listen to me...

 [secretly I think she shouldn't learn any more words!!!] 

 

 

 

 communication is very important

 

sigues siendo tu...

ni el tiempo

ni las letras ambiguas

te alejaran de mi...

nos une lo que es inmortal

intocable

indivisible

amor puro

que pases un maravilloso dia[casi noche..

mas bien noche!!!!!!he llegado a casa hace poco!!!Sorry]

 

te quiero mucho bruji!!!!!

[me parece que el post se va a quedar

un asquito...pero esto hoy esta asi!!!

solo queria reiterarte mi carino sincero

en este dia...y todos los dias.]

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sorry ...I've been away for a few days...I had a very unpleasant and known virus...the flu!!!At the same time my laptop got also a virus...haha...so inside...so outside...the funny part is...I was able to come into xanga...but couldn't post...or I could go into my hotmail account...but not open the mail...it was crazy!!!!!!The funniest thing that happened was to go to my bank site...and not being able to log in...the log in link simply had disappeared!!!!!!Now...I have half data...it's not fixed yet...but it looks like little by little it's getting better...am trying to avoid to install new windows...but...I dunno if I manage to get everything back...

 

I want to send a big hug and all my love to Ketja for her birthday [I think it was yesterday!!!!sorry sister!!]

And Naty...de corazon te deseo un dia hermoso ahi en Argentina con tu familia y novio!!!!Disfruta nena...la vida

es para disfrutar cada momento possible...y hoy...estoy segura...es uno de los momentos mas bellos para celebrar

ese cumpleanos tuyo.Te quiero muvcho nenita...bebe una copita por mi...y no olvides el trocito de tarta!!!!!!

cuidate chiquita!!!!!

A very happy day to everybody!!!

Slowly slowly O mind,

everything in own pace happens
Gardner may water a hundred buckets,

 fruit arrives only in its season

==Kabir==

 

where is the voice of the wind gone
why do birds sing sad songs

when did my dreams lose their wings
how do I find the way back to me

 

September days outside
dark clouds
dark sky
golden trees

when did my dreams lose their wings
how do I find the way back to me

...the jasmine climbs up proudly
unmoved by seasonal changes...
blooming

 

 

With the ocean set ablaze
The smoke yet manifests not
Only the one who gets burnt
Envisions the heat of loving thought

=Kabir=

 

 

 

I'm the one laughing all the time...

 

 

After 13 hours ....

 

Dad run away from the room when the baby was almost coming...but he came back

to cut the string...very nervous...very frightened...but he did it!!!

[am the one saying "wat een mooie baby!!!!"="what a nice baby"]...haha...my grandson...hey!!!!!

 

<

....but I had checked him up already...counted every finger and toe...hahaha...

this one was taken today...he is doing just fine...mama and papa are very happy

and the two sisters try to adapt to the new baby....behaving a little better than usual...just

a little...

I try to adapt as well...with a smile

hugs

 

The hague view from the hospital when Christian came to this crazy world at 16:18pm.

We had gone in at 3am yesterday...we were all tired and exhausted...the doctors decided

to put the mother with the infuse...she couldn't make it anymore...she has been in and out

the hospital for the last two months....with all of us...in and out.

So...when we thought we couldn't pass another day without sleeping as normal

people do...the doctors put her the infuse...a drop of blood fell on the bed...

and left this mark:

 

So...we were all in awe...looking at it...but it really didn;t help...we saw it as sign of the baby

to all of us..,

And at 16:18 after a lot of suffering...pushing...and crying....here came Christian.

a beautiful baby...that weighs 8 pounds.,,,very healthy...thank God!!!!!

here with the God mother...my daughter Paula

Welcome Christian...as Magi put it...we know you're not coming to Disney World..

but...Gosh!!!!!!you really made us suffer the last two months....

 

Am going to sleep now...I don't even remember how many hours we haven't slept!!!!!

Have a peaceful day everybody!!!!!Am not tired!!!!!!Am dead!!!!