looking into your eyes

rainbows of joy

cascade into mine

I forget

the stormy yesterday

and enjoy the moment

of today.

love you

and

thank you

Kelcy-Yenaisis-Christian

 

 

 

 

[today...a visit to the reptiles]

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chris was taken to Amsterdam today.

he's very weak...he lost 10 kilos in 5 days.

they'll try to make him stronger to operate  next monday.

 

 To everything (turn, turn, turn)
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)
And a time for every purpose, under heaven

A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep

To everything (turn, turn, turn)
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)
And a time for every purpose, under heaven

A time to build up,a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones, a time to gather stones together

To everything (turn, turn, turn)
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)
And a time for every purpose, under heaven

A time of love, a time of hate
A time of war, a time of peace
A time you may embrace, a time to refrain from embracing

To everything (turn, turn, turn)
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)
And a time for every purpose, under heaven

A time to gain, a time to lose
A time to rend, a time to sew
A time to love, a time to hate
A time for peace, I swear its not too late

[the Byrds-Words-adapted from the bible, book of ecclesiastes
Music-pete seeger]

 

 

 

[another saturday.another cold morning.winter breath coming slowly by.

peace.inner peace.

outside hell flourishing on the streets of the low lands.

 there's something floating in the air altering

human behavior.there's something floating in the air altering human

tissues.there's something in the air altering the natural flow of pure

energy...love.

my friend Chris waits  to be urgently operated

in Amsterdam.the carcinoma doesn't wait.it's a matter of individual circumstances

my friend.some trees are part of a beautiful garden having their own gardener.others

grow in the wild without special care.

we are just a bit fed up with the pain and the odor of putrefacted tissues.for the pain

OxyContin helps.you sleep endlessly the whole day through.it's like having you

and not having you.but we still hope for a positive result.half of your face will be

reconstructed...and still 35 days of radiotherapy after surgery.will you be able to hold

on till the 29th?Ali is so afraid of losing you....and I am so sorry you are not a tree

from a beautiful rich garden...with a special gardener...to treat you right now.

it's saturday...peace.]

 

 

 

 

 

I am part of the load
Not rightly balanced
I drop off in the grass,
like the old Cave-sleepers, to browse
wherever I fall.

For hundreds of thousands of years I have been dust-grains
floating and flying in the will of the air,
often forgetting ever being
in that state, but in sleep
I migrate back. I spring loose
from the four-branched, time -and-space cross,
this waiting room.

I walk into a huge pasture
I nurse the milk of millennia

Everyone does this in different ways.
Knowing that conscious decisions
and personal memory
are much too small a place to live,
every human being streams at night
into the loving nowhere, or during the day,
in some absorbing work.

 

<RUMI>

her voice sounds like a hammer hitting my head.

time.time.

do you know

when i was a little girl nobody had a watch...or a clock.a

man came every morning shouting from the street

"the clock says it's 6 ".and we all got up.

we had no electricity.oil lamps.then gas lamps.she

looks through the window and nods her head.too

much electricty everywhere...people get sick.we

were healthier...you are all sick.it comes from all

the cables around you.and the television.and the computers.

you all don't think about us.we are less than nothing.

i can't even make a call.strange language you all use.then dial 1.

then dial 2.then dial 3...when they finish I forgot why

i was calling.there are no family doctors anymore.now

they don't even look at us...they look at the computer.

you go to them expecting a nice cup of coffee..

friendly conversation...and they stick their noses

in the damn pc...and send you home.last week

i asked my doctor about my blood tests...

he said everything was perfect ...looking at the computer.

i laughed so much.i hadn't done the blood tests yet.

[I couldn't stop her neverending blabla about the good old times...I don't miss them.

but she has a million reasons to talk like this.

yesterday I got a letter from my company.we might

have to stop working.the newspapers talk about

8.000 out of a job.ambulant care to the old and sick.

the townhall has decided to work with cheaper independent

workers..with no specialization.this has been going on for the last three years.

global changes ...global disaster for the poor

and the needed.I feel a certain repulse for the new changes.I certainly

wished to have the power to make the ones

that are in charge[sadly chosen by all of us]very old

and very sick...and having nobody to help them.

I know this is not very spiritual...don't care....what is spiritual anyway?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

this little human thing is my granddaughter

Yenaisis.first october was her second birthday.

my daughter worries a lot about her...mostly

due to her communication skills.she talks very

little...let's see...her vocabulary till 10

minutes ago...

ma [referring to me]

mama

papa

eat

drink

kuki[music]

kuk[book]

bye

hello

yes

no[this one is her fav.]

she knows how to scream in all possible tones...

she dances and moves like an adult

climbs everywhere like a cat...

and has the most amazing laugh

contagious and devilish...

I try to tell my daughter she shouldn't worry...

she's growing up fine...mini...but fine...

but she doesn't listen to me...

 [secretly I think she shouldn't learn any more words!!!] 

 

 

 

 communication is very important

 

sigues siendo tu...

ni el tiempo

ni las letras ambiguas

te alejaran de mi...

nos une lo que es inmortal

intocable

indivisible

amor puro

que pases un maravilloso dia[casi noche..

mas bien noche!!!!!!he llegado a casa hace poco!!!Sorry]

 

te quiero mucho bruji!!!!!

[me parece que el post se va a quedar

un asquito...pero esto hoy esta asi!!!

solo queria reiterarte mi carino sincero

en este dia...y todos los dias.]